Sabeen

I found a nugget...nah it werent chicken nuggets, its my pathetic friend or shall I say "great" friend?!! Shes such a funny bunny - "Isnt it funny how a bare likes hunny". Well this bunny loves me loads, she told me today. More than the rest of u (u know who u r), hehe. Oi nugget u best appreciate having such a nice friend like me :oD Im sure u do, we all love u so much. When u get married, we are gonna miss u, u best not ignore us coz dont forget we know where u live and if we have to we will sort "him" out too, isnt it girls?? :oP xxx

Hey guys I feel talllll today. Don't asky why! Actually I dunno if I feel tall but I dont feel short. I think I should continue to sleep isnt it!! U know what I mean? You grow when you are sleeping isnt it. Am I bafflin u? ooops i'll stop now, nah not coz im bafflin u but coz ive just baffled myself. Look I was only just saying what I was thinking, pea brain!!

Anyway I feel fat today, nah I really do, Ive eaten sooo much (Alhamdulillah). I think ive eaten so much that I can feel the flesh expand on my feet - really!! :oP
Nah im not going crazy, the Arabic is working me up - yeh why not just blame it all on the studying, initt!!

It was my first lesson of the Winter Intensive programme. The lesson was fine but it just means more homework. Why was there ever such thing called homework? Why cant school work just remain school work and not home work. But u know what? I actually love learning Arabic on the whole, wonder why she complains then? Dumbass!!

Ok time for some sipping up chaiii now or I will just knock out (its only 8:30pm)...zzzzzzzzzz..

Here are some pics from the trip back in September:




This was my favourite car on the day. Two reasons: You didnt need a license to drive it and you can drive it in the pool, come on what other car can do that?? Such a shame though, I was too big to fit in the damn thing (dont worry I never tried).





These dates looked pretty kewl on the tree. Dont get to find these ones back in London. They tasted brilliant, I ate bare of them during ramadhan. I ate em for sehri, for iftar, for desert, when I would be bored (thats right, I eat when im bored), anyway the point is I loved em. The season is over now so cant find em anymore. I guess I stocked up on em (in my stomach) during the month of Ramadhan.





It was such a nice place, the pool, the sisters, the food. O yeh I got to taste bare turkish food.

SubhanAllah, the samaa (sky) looked gorgeous. The stars, the moon - wow, wish I could reach for them. The creator of this universe is don. Course hes created my bestfriends isnt it?!! Im talking about the dogs, cats, cows etc etc :oP
Sometimes I think what would it be like if I could fly. Well my air tickets would b free and I could do more trips to London that way. Also I wonder whether I could bring down the moon and stars. hehehehe (typical bollywood dialogue).

The point is that Sabeen can't fly but time is flying by pretty quickly. Im back in London in like under 6 months. The Arabic is going well Alhamdulillah but no doubt it can be better. Please make du'a for me that Allah (swt) makes this test easy on me, inshaAllah.

Also, just a quick reminder! Im making up for all the fard fasts I missed in my previous years due to reasons that are valid (from Islam). If any of you guys out there have missed any then you need to make them up as you will be accounted in your akhira. Don't leave it till when you feel 'ready' coz as I mentioned before it may be too late. Come on guys, I had like over 80 to do, now 67 more to go, Alhamdulillah so it is possible inshaAllah! May Allah (swt) reward you for your efforts, Ameen!

Hey...it’s been quite sometime since I have spoken about what’s gwaanin down here, I mean going on. Well in the space of these days, I realised I am turning 22 this month. I remember this time last year, I kinda couldn't wait for my 21st (you know one of the 'special' birthdays). Anyway, so you know all the presents coming my way. Having a big family mashaAllah and of course being such a nice person alhamdulillah :oP I have many friends which meant 'bare' presents. Opening presents is always fun. I was reminded of my birthday as I was leaving London on the 12th of November 2005 to return back to Egypt. Although there were no presents this time round but my sisters organised an early cake for me since I wasn’t going to be in London for my birthday. It was really chweet but deep down the 'birthday celebration' just didn’t seem as exciting as it did a year ago. I wonder why? Well come to think of it, it's one more year knocked off my life.

Anyway two days ago, I was making two plats out of my hair whilst complaining that I feel old. I said to my flat mate "errrgghh, I’m turning 22, I feel old", she responded "nah Sabeen, you look 15/16 years old, like a little school girl". She misunderstood me altogether, I didn’t say "I look old", I said "I feel old". Whyzzz that? Hmmm 22 years, what have I done? What have I achieved? Well got a degree, met loadsa pretty kewl people, chilled out bare, cruised in my car, bla bla bla - the list can go on for ever, but anyway now I am in Egypt studying Arabic. I guess I have been able to achieve what I’ve always aimed for one way or another, even if that meant floooooking my way through it. However, one question I never asked myself was what would I do if I knew there was no tomorrow? What does this mean?. Well who knows how long I’m going to live, possible a year, possible 10 years or even a 100?!! I don't know but let me know if u do (with proof yeh). Let’s imagine for a minute that I had one more day to live. Yes not a year, not 10, just a day. I'm actually being pretty reasonable here coz I could be "gone in 60 seconds". Sounds pretty interesting or shall I say scary?. The question that arises is what do I wanna achieve and how before the angels come n get me? Is my objective going to open the doors to Jannah (paradise) or is it going to drag me towards the black flames of hell fire - Jahannum?. So if I had one more day to live, what would I do? Would I do everything possible for my entrance into Jannah or would it just be that one action I do to feel the flames - OUCH! (It's definitely more than just an ouch). Every action you do may be your last before you die. What are you doing to make sure you don't choose Jahannum for yourself? It may feel so much easier to engage yourself with Haram (crap) but is it worth the nateejah (result) in the akhira? - It may be too late.