Objective?
Hey...it’s been quite sometime since I have spoken about what’s gwaanin down here, I mean going on. Well in the space of these days, I realised I am turning 22 this month. I remember this time last year, I kinda couldn't wait for my 21st (you know one of the 'special' birthdays). Anyway, so you know all the presents coming my way. Having a big family mashaAllah and of course being such a nice person alhamdulillah :oP I have many friends which meant 'bare' presents. Opening presents is always fun. I was reminded of my birthday as I was leaving London on the 12th of November 2005 to return back to Egypt. Although there were no presents this time round but my sisters organised an early cake for me since I wasn’t going to be in London for my birthday. It was really chweet but deep down the 'birthday celebration' just didn’t seem as exciting as it did a year ago. I wonder why? Well come to think of it, it's one more year knocked off my life.
Anyway two days ago, I was making two plats out of my hair whilst complaining that I feel old. I said to my flat mate "errrgghh, I’m turning 22, I feel old", she responded "nah Sabeen, you look 15/16 years old, like a little school girl". She misunderstood me altogether, I didn’t say "I look old", I said "I feel old". Whyzzz that? Hmmm 22 years, what have I done? What have I achieved? Well got a degree, met loadsa pretty kewl people, chilled out bare, cruised in my car, bla bla bla - the list can go on for ever, but anyway now I am in Egypt studying Arabic. I guess I have been able to achieve what I’ve always aimed for one way or another, even if that meant floooooking my way through it. However, one question I never asked myself was what would I do if I knew there was no tomorrow? What does this mean?. Well who knows how long I’m going to live, possible a year, possible 10 years or even a 100?!! I don't know but let me know if u do (with proof yeh). Let’s imagine for a minute that I had one more day to live. Yes not a year, not 10, just a day. I'm actually being pretty reasonable here coz I could be "gone in 60 seconds". Sounds pretty interesting or shall I say scary?. The question that arises is what do I wanna achieve and how before the angels come n get me? Is my objective going to open the doors to Jannah (paradise) or is it going to drag me towards the black flames of hell fire - Jahannum?. So if I had one more day to live, what would I do? Would I do everything possible for my entrance into Jannah or would it just be that one action I do to feel the flames - OUCH! (It's definitely more than just an ouch). Every action you do may be your last before you die. What are you doing to make sure you don't choose Jahannum for yourself? It may feel so much easier to engage yourself with Haram (crap) but is it worth the nateejah (result) in the akhira? - It may be too late.
Anyway two days ago, I was making two plats out of my hair whilst complaining that I feel old. I said to my flat mate "errrgghh, I’m turning 22, I feel old", she responded "nah Sabeen, you look 15/16 years old, like a little school girl". She misunderstood me altogether, I didn’t say "I look old", I said "I feel old". Whyzzz that? Hmmm 22 years, what have I done? What have I achieved? Well got a degree, met loadsa pretty kewl people, chilled out bare, cruised in my car, bla bla bla - the list can go on for ever, but anyway now I am in Egypt studying Arabic. I guess I have been able to achieve what I’ve always aimed for one way or another, even if that meant floooooking my way through it. However, one question I never asked myself was what would I do if I knew there was no tomorrow? What does this mean?. Well who knows how long I’m going to live, possible a year, possible 10 years or even a 100?!! I don't know but let me know if u do (with proof yeh). Let’s imagine for a minute that I had one more day to live. Yes not a year, not 10, just a day. I'm actually being pretty reasonable here coz I could be "gone in 60 seconds". Sounds pretty interesting or shall I say scary?. The question that arises is what do I wanna achieve and how before the angels come n get me? Is my objective going to open the doors to Jannah (paradise) or is it going to drag me towards the black flames of hell fire - Jahannum?. So if I had one more day to live, what would I do? Would I do everything possible for my entrance into Jannah or would it just be that one action I do to feel the flames - OUCH! (It's definitely more than just an ouch). Every action you do may be your last before you die. What are you doing to make sure you don't choose Jahannum for yourself? It may feel so much easier to engage yourself with Haram (crap) but is it worth the nateejah (result) in the akhira? - It may be too late.
hhmmmm mashallah looks like sabeens finally growin a brain lol jokin! thank you sabeen for that great reminder of how important time is in our lives and how we have to spend every moment for the sake of allah to gain entry into jannah inshallah . i think we all need that constant reminder coz we all do tend to slip away once in a while... may allah give us all the ability to strengthen our iman inshallah and remember if we take one step closer to allah , allah would run to us , which basically means if we show allah that we WANT to be closer to him then he will guide us inshallah, we shouldnt just wait for that 'moment' thinking allah will guide you when ur ready like some ppl told me b4 i started practising , show allah you want to be close to him and subhanallah it will happen, u have to try too!.... and yeah sabeen isnt 22 such an ugly age man its so horrible makes u feeel soooo much older one step closer to 30! lol . and no way u dont look 15/16. u look 12/13 man , and i dont mean to put ur hopes up but i might come egypt if my tutor says its necessary for dissertation , wouldnt that b sooo fun :) !!! it might not happen so dont gt too excited.keep up the fus'ha mashallah ur getting reaaaalllllll good !!! :)
p.s.. oh yeah we went to a unity convention event yesterday it was really good but i wish u were there afsha n reef were so boring man gosh lol jokin (u guys r the best ) , sabeen u better b careful coz they might end up being my bum chums n ud b all alone lol..
Posted by
Anonymous |
10:35 am
your right najat! That 'moment'?? What if that moment never comes?
Posted by
Sabeen |
4:18 pm
salam 1st jus wntd to say the most amazing thing is the qudrat of allah those who he wishes to guide will be guided last yr this tym u was so out of it i remember how u was n for u to write an essay about the fear of death jus shows how mercifull and almighty allah is. i jus wna say that we neva really put death into its real context, we jus let it brush past us, weve neva experienced a tym 4 us to feel the day is coming. we dnt even pray our salah lyk it was the last. only recently, wen my nephew was takin into intensive care did i for the 1st tym feel allah really can tke our lives wen eva he wants, my nephew was fine the nite b4 bein as naughty as eva n den suddenly the nex day he wouldn wake up he was put to sleep no1 gt chance to speak to him, say how much they loved him, i really felt that allah had takin him away, alhamdulila he is fine nw but it was lyk a reality chek that our lives jaan is under Allahs supervision he created each organ and has the right to take it away wen eva he desires. it wasn the fear of loosing my nephew as his only a child, wot sin culd he hav dne to be answerable for!! but the fact that lyf is really that short that allah can take us away at any tym he returnd ikraam to us but gave the opportuninty for us to feel that the time of death is unknown. den i strtd thinkin "oh my god wot will b my last actions b4 i die", those who go clubbing say if u die in a club or in a bar hw humiliating is this. only allah can give u honour and only he can humiliate u. those DISobdeient their 'faces will b covered in black soot' n will b 'naked' those OBEDIENT their 'faces will shine' with a bright light n b 'protected unda the shade of allah'! wot mre humiliation cn we ask 4 on the day of the black smoke????
Posted by
Anonymous |
2:03 pm
Yeh we get many reminders from Allah (swt) and yet we don't take them into so much consideration.
Alhamdulillah, Ikraam is better now. Thats just it, death is unknown, I wish we really felt the true importance of this unknown factor coz its the decider for our akhira.
May Allah (swt) guide us all on the straight path, Ameen!
Posted by
Sabeen |
11:48 am